Procrastinating during the Holidays is sometimes a good idea.

Decorating for Christmas was definitely on my to do list, I just kept putting it on the bottom.  The idea of digging out all my favorite memories that I had collected over the years for the Christmas tree, kept me frozen with apprehension.  My first year as a widow I avoided the Holidays and traveled. I ran away and didn’t participate in many of my favorite traditions. The decision was made to decorate and I was planning to do it.  I was going to do it… after I made myself some brunch.

While I was making home fries, an omelet and coffee, I searched for a piece of paper so I could make a to do list.  After brunch, my puppy started barking.  I was sure he needed a walk so off we went.

When I got back from the walk I noticed that my yard needed a good clean up.

I took out the power tools – a noisy blower.  I started blowing leaves all over the back yard. Once the deck was cleared and the rest pushed to the sides of the yard I thought I would start decorating inside.

But then I noticed the bird feeder was empty.  I have a thing about blue jays and cardinals.  I feel like  my husband and my dad send them to me to comfort me.  It was time to get some bird food.  That was really important.  So I found the car keys and put on a hat.  Off to  do some shopping.

At the garden store, I picked up 20 pounds of bird seed, 75 feet of white pine roping and a 15 inch fake Christmas tree.

Once the bird feeder was filled and hanging, I got back to blowing the back yard.  That’s when my friend came over with a hose.  I needed it for the boat.  She suggested we make a bonfire in the back yard.  So we did.  We threw in some logs and sticks.  It was more fun than bagging leaves.  We didn’t burn the leaves because that is illegal in New York.

After she left, my brother in law came over.  He changed some shower heads in the house that were broken.  We discussed the menu for Christmas dinner. He and my husband always made the roast and did a great job. We are both sorely mourning the loss of Mike and he keeps in contact with my boys and me. This year he plans to have my sons help him. We made plans to get together with family before Christmas as well. That was a good distraction.

Finally, I brought the white pine roping into the house, cleared off the mantle and put the greens on top.  I carried up a few boxes of ornaments and decorations.  The TV  played  country music and I poured myself a glass of wine.  The first decoration to go up was a beautiful sign a friend had given me that is part of our home now.  It says: Because someone we love is in Heaven, a little bit of Heaven is in our home.

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Just as the nativity set was beginning to sort itself out, help arrived in the form of friendly neighborhood elves. They brought more wine, pizza and young daughters who love to decorate!  Everyone took a spot to enhance.  Some things look like they always did, but a new perspective on the same old stuff was really fun for me to see come together.

Laughter and smiles ensued as everyone rummaged through my collections of stored Christmas memories.  I did not get a big tree, so I couldn’t put all those wedding, baby, travel and homemade ornaments up.  The stockings stayed in the box.  I’d rather not have any than to have one missing.

I was glad I had procrastinated. The day unfolded the way it was supposed to.  Traditions are wonderful but making new memories is important as well.

Waking up this morning, the house was festive and those girls even cleaned up!  Lights and garland  illuminate my home.  Waves of sadness and stress still hit me as I realize the love of my life is no longer here.  I do feel his presence at times and know he looks over us but I still miss him.  Having friends and family over is the best part of the holiday season and I am so blessed that I have both.

The only thing is that the squirrels have discovered the bird feeder.  I hope they leave some for the birds.

 

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5 comments on “Procrastinating during the Holidays is sometimes a good idea.”
  1. Liz says:

    Sounds like it turned out to be a good day after all. Friends and family are so important. Know that I am thinking of you this holiday.

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    1. runawaywidow says:

      Thanks Liz. It did turn out to be a fun day and I am happy with how the house looks. You will have to come over for a visit real soon!

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  2. Addie says:

    You are truly amazing….how you write about what you do as well as emotional and heart rendering feelings about th good and bad in doing it…and yes we all can procrastinate but still moving on and doing new things makes all the difference. GOOD FOR YOU!

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  3. cedar51 says:

    New memories especially in the “decorating” scenario…I have done nothing, but that’s not unusual. But I had 2 lovely surprises in the last week both to do with my new home, even though I’m a tenant of only a few months…

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  4. runawaywidow says:

    Glad they were lovely surprises. Sounds nice.

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