When the butterfly landed on my beer can and started sipping as I sat in a poolside lounge chair in Thailand on the first anniversary of Mike’s death, I took that as a sign that he was still with me.
That was one of many signs I’ve had over the past 3 and a half years.
Immediately after he passed, his cousin and mother started finding dimes in the craziest of places. They felt strongly that these were signs.
I had bird visits. After my dad died I would see cardinals. I visited a psychic medium a few months after my late husband passed and she told me he sends me blue jays. Sure enough, on a daily basis I see a blue jay – usually one flies in front of my car on my 2 minute commute to work, every day.
The other sign I kept getting was looking at the clock and it always showed the numbers 918. That is my birthday. But it was so insistent and I was seeing that number all the time. Is it a coincidence that my fiancé also has the same birthday as me, or was that a sign?
I spent an amazing summer weekend with the Forever Family Foundation in Connecticut the first year after my husband died. I had a positive experience bonding with other people going through grief. Several certified psychic mediums did group readings and I was fortunate to have Mike come through with messages for me during those sessions.
After the weekend I bought a book by Laura Lynn Jackson called “The Light Between Us”. In her memoir she shares the gift of connecting with the other side. It was comforting to me at a time when I struggled with overwhelming sadness and loss to feel that there is something after we die.
This past year my life has gotten back to normal. In fact I am blessed to have met someone to start a new chapter with. I love him and he loves me and we are excited to be sharing our happiness with friends and family at our wedding next week!
But, sometimes even I wonder how this effects what I had with Mike. People say stuff like “he’d want you to be happy” but knowing him, I think he would not be so happy that I was marrying someone else.
So I’ve been looking for a sign. Is he OK with all of this? Well, I think I got my sign. Really I got a few this past week.
First, I had a stressful dream that I was running late for my wedding. My fiancé was waiting inside the Catholic Church (we’re getting married on a beach not a church) and I couldn’t find my white wedding dress, I was wearing an orange dress. Mike was there and told me it didn’t matter, I looked beautiful. And he was happy for me.
Then 2 nights ago I went to see Laura Lynn Jackson at the Book Revue in Huntington. She was giving a talk and book signing of her new book “Signs”.
She is such a good speaker and her message is that you don’t need to see a psychic medium to connect with loved ones who have crossed over. They are trying to connect with us and we just have to be open and listen.
In fact she ended her talk with a homework assignment. She said butterflies and birds and dimes are too easy. Challenge your loved ones with a specific request. Something out of the ordinary. Pick a number sequence and an animal and a word or phrase. Tell them to send it to you and they will find a way to do it.
So while waiting in line to get our books signed my friend and I picked 2 animals. She said penguin and I said baby giraffe.
The next morning she texted me a picture that she saw that morning of a penguin and while putting books away in my classroom I scanned through a book to see if I should donate it or keep it and sure enough saw a baby giraffe.
I picked a word too- it is from one of Mike’s favorite songs called Waterloo Sunset. Sunset seemed too easy so I picked “Waterloo”.
In the afternoon I was going to read a book to my class about sea animals because I had this cute jellyfish project to make with them. But I happened to see Dr. Seuss’s 𝑨𝑩𝑪 book and told the kids I love this book so we’ll read this one first. Wasn’t I shocked when I got to the W page:
I really did get chills.
Finally at the end of the day curled up with my fiancé talking about our upcoming nuptials I looked up and saw the time. You got it: 918.
I think Mike is giving me signs that he is OK with me getting married and he is watching over us.
I can’t wait to read Laura’s new book and to also share my story with her.
Challenge yourself today and I hope you get the signs you want!