When the butterfly landed on my beer can and started sipping as I sat in a poolside lounge chair in Thailand on the first anniversary of Mike’s death, I took that as a sign that he was still with me.
That was one of many signs I’ve had over the past 3 and a half years.
Immediately after he passed, his cousin and mother started finding dimes in the craziest of places. They felt strongly that these were signs.
I had bird visits. After my dad died I would see cardinals. I visited a psychic medium a few months after my late husband passed and she told me he sends me blue jays. Sure enough, on a daily basis I see a blue jay – usually one flies in front of my car on my 3 minute commute to work, every day.
The other sign I kept getting was looking at the clock and it always showed the numbers 9:18. That is my birthday. But it was so insistent and I was seeing that number all the time. Is it a coincidence that my new love also has the same birthday as me, or was that a sign?
I spent an amazing summer weekend with the Forever Family Foundation in Connecticut the first year after my husband died. I had a positive experience bonding with other people going through grief. Several certified psychic mediums did group readings and I was fortunate to have Mike come through with messages for me during those sessions.
After the weekend, I bought a book by Laura Lynn Jackson called “The Light Between Us”. In her memoir she shares the gift of connecting with the other side. It was comforting to me at a time when I struggled with overwhelming sadness and loss to feel that there is something after we die and that it was possible to connect with loved ones who have passed.
My life has gotten back to a new normal and I am blessed to have met someone to start a new chapter with. I love him and he loves me and we are excited share our happiness with friends and family. We just celebrated our one year anniversary and it is true, life goes on.
I wonder how this effects what I had with Mike. People say “he’d want you to be happy” but knowing him, I think he would not be so happy that I was married someone else.
So I’ve been looking for a sign. Is he OK with all of this? Well, I think I got my sign. Really I got a few this past week.
First, I had a stressful dream that I was running late for my wedding. My fiancé was waiting inside the Catholic Church (we got married on a beach not a church) and I couldn’t find my white wedding dress, I was wearing an orange dress. Mike was there and told me it didn’t matter, I looked beautiful. And he was happy for me. I woke up feeling glad to have had a visit with Mike and that he was happy.
Last year I went to see Laura Lynn Jackson at the Book Revue in Huntington. She gave a talk and book signing of her new book “Signs”.
I have seen her work as a psychic medium with a large group before and was overwhelmed with the messages she gave to others. She made it clear that you don’t need to see a psychic medium to connect with loved ones who have crossed over. She says they are trying to connect with us and we just have to be open and listen.
She ended her presentation with a homework assignment. She said butterflies and birds and dimes are too easy. Challenge your loved ones with a specific request. Something out of the ordinary. Pick a number sequence and an animal and a word or phrase. Tell them to send it to you and they will find a way to do it.
So while waiting in line to get our books signed my friend and I picked 2 animals. She chose penguin and I said baby giraffe.
The next morning my friend texted me a picture. She excitedly sent me a photo that appeared on her Facebook page of a penguin! Later while putting books away in my kindergarten classroom I scanned through a book to see if I should donate it or keep it and sure enough, skimming quickly I landed on a page with a giraffe. A baby giraffe! I had to laugh.
I chose a word as well. A tricky word from one of Mike’s favorite songs called Waterloo Sunset. Sunset seemed too easy, so I picked “Waterloo”.
In the afternoon I was going to read a book to my class about sea animals because I had this cute jellyfish project to make with them. As I sat down in my reading chair, I happened to see Dr. Seuss’s 𝑨𝑩𝑪 book and told the kids I love this book so we’ll read this one first. Wasn’t I shocked when I got to the W page:
My eyes popped out of my head as I stumbled over the words. I really did get chills.
Finally at the end of the day curled up with my fiancé binging on the latest Netflix show I looked up and saw the time. You got it: 9:18.
I think Mike gives me signs that he is OK and watching over us. Asking for specific signs like Laura suggested seemed far fetched at first, but it really did work.
I can’t wait to read Laura’s new book and to also share my story with her.
Challenge yourself today and I hope you get the signs you want!